First Blog of 2016

 So 2015... what can I say? One of the worst years of my life so far, however I sure have learnt a lot about myself and found a small part of who I am last year. I feel like when you 'discover' fully who you are or even a small piece you are at one, but you seek for adventure. Adventure and change is the road to discovering who you actually are. You discover something more than just your name, your family and your memories, you reveal something incredible.

Last year I realised I was never happy. It took me around half of 2015 to find out why that was and I now know, although it wasn't all down to my health but it was also down to choices I had made, friends I had and my perspective whilst living day-to-day life. Towards the very end of the year I finally acted upon my plan to get rid all of the negativity in my life that took me around 4 months to work out. This gave me two months to think things through and actually made me think again about everything and if it would actually make me happier for the long term or if it was just going to benefit in the short term. Too much happened last year that effected the way I was thinking, I couldn't think straight so I just done what I thought was best and went with my head over my heart. I got rid of some friends, I thought it would've been incredibly hard but actually it was a huge relief. Although I loved and still do love those friends it has benefited my life massively and I now know it was the right decision because my outlook on life has changed once agam.

I'm still trying to figure things out. And I don't believe I will ever figure everything out I would like to, but as I try, I discover more things I would like to figure out. That might sound weird, but that is how I am able to find who I am. As I logged into Blogger after a long period of nearly 3 months this post was actually a draft, I'd written the first part but this paragraph is what I've added and it's funny to see that at the start of 2016 I felt like I'd found myself a little bit more, and since then I haven't been able to progress from that. It's a time consuming process and I can't wait until it is over. Depending on if it ever does, of course. I get so caught up in my own mind sometimes. I need to stop for a while and sort myself out sometimes.. There is so many disadvantages of being a deep person.

I hope, at some stage, everyone in their lives start or continue the process of finding who they are.. Not how others have molded you as you've grown. Because this is your life, and at some point you'll probably be alone in the world and need to make impressions on people. Being somebody else will never get you far.


Find your own way.



- Tal